Although we still have hope that things could work out in the end, we were devastated to learn this morning that we have to return our sweet daughter to the orphanage tomorrow morning and come back to Canada tomorrow evening without her.
Our hearts are completely broken, and we need some time to grieve. There is nothing we can do but wait and hope. There's nothing more I can say about this and I can't tell you what has gone on, besides the fact that it is nothing to do with us or the baby and is at a much higher level where things are totally beyond our control. As we are still hopeful that our process will continue, we would appreciate your comments, but please don't mention the country where our daughter is from as we don't want anything at all to jeopardize our chances of returning here for our girl.
Worst. Christmas. Ever.
my heart goes out to you and your hubby - adding my wishes for a miracle to help support you.
Posted by: karen | December 11, 2009 at 10:23 PM
My heart is breaking for you. I hope things work out very much. Feel free to email if you want to get anything off your chest.
Posted by: Steph | December 11, 2009 at 10:46 PM
I have nothing to say that will have even the slightest affect... I send my prayers your way, but my heart aches for you.
Posted by: Meadowlark | December 11, 2009 at 11:05 PM
ohhh i am so so sooo sad for you. i send my most heartfelt wishes that your family can be reunited.
Posted by: hillary | December 12, 2009 at 01:42 AM
oh no. When I saw the title of this post in google reader I almost didn't want to openm it...I'm so very sorry this has happened. I have been following your journey for some time now, with great anticipation and am devastated to hear this sad and frustrating news.
Just know that strangers on the other side of the world are sending you love and good thoughts and stay strong because you are good people and I hope your little family will be reunited very soon. I know that these words can't heal your sadness right now and I wish we could all do something more for you but words are all I can offer. Oh I am sorry.
Posted by: Sara | December 12, 2009 at 03:40 AM
Oh honey - I am so sad for you! I will say a prayer that God is with you. Chin up!!
Posted by: Kim | December 12, 2009 at 08:05 AM
I am so sorry.
Posted by: jodi | December 12, 2009 at 08:24 AM
Praying for a miracle. How heart breaking...
Posted by: Sara C | December 12, 2009 at 10:04 AM
Oh my goodness, I got chills reading this post this morning. This is truly heartbreaking, I am so very sorry and hope that this resolves itself quickly and you get your daughter back.
Posted by: shannon | December 12, 2009 at 11:42 AM
Hugs, hugs and more hugs... take time to grieve and again, I have HOPE that your little one will be with you soon...
Posted by: Kristine. | December 12, 2009 at 12:45 PM
Big hug to you both, at a time when you probably need more than that!! I'm so sorry for you. Let's hope that maybe this will work out well in the end.
Posted by: Elizabeth | December 12, 2009 at 01:16 PM
So sorry to hear what happened. Praying that things change and praying for the 3 of you.
Posted by: Wendy | December 12, 2009 at 07:23 PM
I just read your post and gasped! My husband asked what it was and I explained. Being through an international adoption ourselves, I can't even imagine the extent of your pain and disappointment right now. Our hearts break but prayers will stay with you. Remain with your little girl in your heart and wait for it to settle and work out.
Posted by: Jenn N | December 12, 2009 at 08:38 PM
Psalm 34:18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
You are not alone right now.
Praying for doors to open . . .
Posted by: April O. | December 13, 2009 at 12:56 AM
Oh NO dear one! You all in are in my heart, my prayers.
Posted by: Colleen | December 13, 2009 at 01:37 PM
My heart is breaking for you. I hope that everything works out for the best and until then my thoughts are with your family.
Posted by: Nicola | December 13, 2009 at 06:20 PM
Oh my god! We are shocked. If there is ANYTHING we can do, let us know. Meanwhile, we're thinking of all three of you!
Posted by: Heidi & Tyler | December 13, 2009 at 10:47 PM
i'm so so sorry to hear this devastating news. i'll be praying for a miracle!
Posted by: shannon | December 14, 2009 at 06:20 AM
So sad for you.
Dear Jesus, please grant a miracle so that these parents and this baby can be together.
Posted by: jenne | December 14, 2009 at 01:46 PM
Oh this is terrible! Dont worry! It will work out in the end. I cant imagine how upset you must be. Keep up your spirits :) Santa might bring you a special gift after all.
Posted by: Melissa | December 14, 2009 at 11:22 PM
I am so very sorry. I stopped to pray for you all.
Posted by: DeeDee Roe | December 15, 2009 at 03:25 PM
I have been out of the blogging world for awhile now, and did not realize you were trying to adopt. I second Melissa's post that Santa may bring you something after all. I witnessed the devastation of this with a good friend of mine who was in Russia for two months with her husband awaiting the adoption of twins. The adoptions laws changed when they were there, and they had to leave without them. A year later when another adoption oppurtunity opened, they found out they were pregnant, but went ahead and adopted anyway. So keep your chin up.
Posted by: Jessica Slorah | December 17, 2009 at 10:08 AM
Oh no... I'm so sorry to hear about your very sad news. My thoughts and prayers are with you, your family, and your little girl. I'm praying that you get reunited soon.
Posted by: Krista | December 17, 2009 at 05:42 PM
Oh, I am so very, very sorry. My heart goes out to you and your husband. I will continue to hope that somehow, by some miracle, things will work out.
Posted by: Cricket | December 19, 2009 at 08:09 PM